Diet

I'm starting to get slightly annoyed. I feel like I don't see results as quickly as I should. The rational part of me is like "it takes time" but the not so rational part is angry and unmotivated.

I reported last week that I lost 8 pounds....it fluctuates between 5-8 now...??? i don't know why. I'm working out so hard and not eating above 1200 calories if that a day. Someone suggested that I need to be eating more calories since i'm working out anywhere from 30 mins to an hour on the elliptical and then another 30 on weights etc. I'm not sure??? I haven't ate even once single bad thing for me...so I don't know why it seems like it is taking years to see results! I know I didn't pack the weight on overnight, so I shouldn't expect to lose it overnight...sigh.

On a happier note...I might be losing more inches than weight? I feel a little smaller(just a little) and 2 people have commented that I look like I've lost weight...that made me happy...BUT I'M READY TO SEE IT ON THE SCALE....I don't know why I'm so hung up on the scale...but I just want to see results.

8 pounds and a recipe

Well, it's been about 3 weeks since I've started my diet and exercise routine...it's getting easier and I'm falling back into good habits! I haven't missed a day of working out and I don't think I could if i wanted to..I'm starting to love it again! I get up around 5 and head to the gym...after that i head home to shower and get ready for the day..i have some extra time and it is great to be able to just move slowly about my morning instead of the rush rush rush I'm use to!

My cousin and friend Heather started a "biggest loser" competition and she is kicking my tail. The girl lost 10 inches in a very short time from all over her body..I'm so proud of her..and okay..maybe a little bit jealous. lol. I'm kidding..she is doing so awesome and she motivates me! I only lost 1 inch last week...that was a bummer...HOWEVER, i have lost 8 pounds!

The downfall to dieting...becoming obsessed with the scale. I find myself weighing a couple times a day and it is really discouraging...i have to stop doing that. Today I was running a little late so i showered at the gym(which i hate doing) but when i walked into the shower room there was a scale(i have never weighed myself on..usually only use the one at home) ANYWAYS, i got on it and it said i weight like 3 pounds more than my starting weight...WHAT THE WHAT???? How is that even possible. I tried to not let it get my down...the scale at home says I'm down 8..so i will choose to believe that..and from now on..only weigh myself on the same scale! Frustrating.

ALSO...my goal is to lose the weight, obviously, but also do it in a good and healthy way. Eating the same things over and over can get a little monotonous so I've decided to still COOK, but find healthy recipes to try...with that said..i found the most amazing soup recipe ever. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Mexican food and it is a zesty mexican soup recipe. I'm in love with it..so i wanted to post it on here for all of you that would like to try it:)

Zesty Mexican Soup
Prep time:15 mins
Cook:10-15 mins(once on)
Makes 5-6 servings, serving size 1 cup
Calories: 190 in one serving

Ingredients
2 cups cooked chicken(i used the chicken that is already sliced into cubes and precooked that you just have to throw in the skillet and warm up..it's low cal too:))
1 can chicken broth (it calls for progresso but i used a diff brand with less cals..i don't guess it matters)
1 can vegetable juice
1 can whole corn drained
1 cup salsa any flavor(i used the marketside kind from walmart...chipotle something...GOOD..and only 5 calories per serving)
1 can chopped green chili's
1/4 cup chopped fresh cilantro

mix all ingredients in pan...heat until boiling and then add cilantro....
EAT!
it really is good:)

Asos, diets, and rambles

I'm in love....love love love...with Asos. I stumbled upon their website and i just LOVE all their stuff. beautiful clothes! So when i found their website....i had to order clothes! Since it is in Eurpose it took 2 decades to get to me though and be the time I received my package this week I realized I will have to send the clothes back bc pretty soon they won't fit due to my diet:)! That's right..i've already lost 5 pounds and im quite excited. Anywho, the clothes are beautiful and I ordered 2 dresses but I ordered a size too big anyways for some strange reason so i'm going to have to either send them back to Europe and get a refund or sale them on ebay! YOU should check them out!

The diet is going good. I am slowly getting back into the gym thing. I use to be religious about it...I wish i still felt that way..most days i have to verbally abuse myself into going. I get up around 5 every morning(something i hate...and am SOOO not use to) but im learning to kinda...sorta enjoy it. maybe a little....i'm usually home by 645 and showered by 7 which leaves me with 2.5 hours to slowly get ready...lounge around...catch up on tv shows or homework...just be lazy before i have to be at work. I teach all day on Tuesdays and Thursdays as well as teaching night classes so it makes for incredibly long days, but I'm realizing that working out in the morning makes me feel better all day long!

I'm freezing and cold....they keep it 3 degrees in my office! I don't like it.

I'm dedicating this post today to the most brilliant person that has ever been in my life. He was inspiring, calm, gentle, kind, giving, loving, and the most upstanding person ever. He was huge...towered over everyone at 6'5! He had the biggest softest hands and I loved loved loved hugging him or hearing him joke with me about the clothes i would wear! I loved his sense of humor! He was the best example i could have ever hoped to have about how to live my life. he was NEVER negative. Not one time did i ever hear a negative response come from him. He never talked bad about ANYONE! And he would probably be sure to put anyone that did in their place. He told it like it was. But his words were few! He was such an amazing person..and 6 years ago today...he went to be with the LORD in a new body! He is now flawlesss...although im pretty sure he always was. I love you Grandpa.

Diary of a former skinny girl

So, as my post earlier this weekend said..I'm embarking on a journey to skinyness. lol. I am extremely motivated and I can't wait to get back into the swing of things..i'm sure by about wednesday of this week...that will have changed! Isn't that how it always goes? You get really fired up about something....but then you realize when your alarm is going off at 5 am ....the gym is the last place on earth you want to be. I am not giving myself the choice though!

A few months ago I bought a shirt that I love love love. I bought it in a large and when I got home I was appalled to see that it would not fit. When I had I let myself gain so much weight? Anyways, I never took the shirt back...it was just too cute...so I am using that as well as another stack of clothes as my motivation!

Tonight I began rummaging through my closet to find about 8 pairs of Silver jeans that I cannot fit into anymore! All of them are almost new! Makes me sick! Silvers are about 80 bucks a pair..and so that is just more motivation! I pulled out a pair of jeans that I use to LOVE...they were a little snug when i bought them but I always loved them...WELL OH MY GOODNESS....they don't even come past my thighs now...i can barely fit both legs into them! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hopefully in a few months...I will begin to see progress.

DIY: jewelry organizer finished product

Well, a few posts ago I said I would post pictures of a very simple do it yourself jewelry organizer project that I read about doing on a blog. It was such a great idea that I just had to try.

What you need:

Frame
Wire(i used welded wire from lowes 7.00)

Spray paint(if you want to paint it)
Staple gun

S hooks (lowes, 3.00 for a bag of 6)

You just paint the frame, wait for it to try, measure the wire and staple it down securely over the back of frame...and voila!

The frame was a deep brown before, I loved this green...it was different and funky so I decided to give it a try!

And here is the final product hanging on the wall. You just hang your S hooks and begin to organize the jewelry! I haven't hung up all my jewelry yet, but you get the idea:)

You gotta just pick a place and start...again! My diet journal.

Okay, so...nothing like a beautiful fall day. Family sitting around the fire pit roasting hot dogs and marshmallows, laughing, joking...and then....the dreaded

"you've put on a lot of weight" comment.

Okay so it didn't happen quite like that. But my beautiful day was ruined when a family member told me that they saw a picture of me from a few years back and "DANG, girl, you use to be tiny!" Burn. Yeah, that didn't feel good. Actually twice in the last week that I have had that comment made....it hurts.

It made me think though. I really have put on the weight. About 4 years back I was just starting college, living on my own for the first time, and I made the decision to make the gym and eating healthy a huge part of my life...almost too much so. I lost between 60-70 pounds in about 5 months. It became an obsession....it's all i did. I would eat too much salad and punish myself by running miles upon miles. I could not function unless I spent hours everyday in the gym on the elliptical...never missing a Pilates or kickboxing class. I hid it,but i was so miserable. It was this horrible obsession of mine, losing weight! I did it though...i lost every single pound and I felt that I looked so much better! I had a TINY waist....i got more attention... the boys like me better lol...and my friends were in awe...but inside i was miserable.

Enter C. My lovely boyfriend he LOVES me the way I am. He was with me when i was skinny, and he is with me now! When we started dating I slowly got out of the horrible gym habit(the gym wasn't horrible, my obsession was) and i slowly started eating out again. With him I ate my first hamburger in years, ate my first french fry in years...and slowly started eating whatever he did! The problem being...it didn't affect him...but i packed back on the weight plus more!

I've known for a while that I need to get back in the gym. But a mixture of disappointment at myself and fear plus the worry of becoming an obsessive gym going freak has kept me from doing what needs to be done. HOWEVER, those little comments pushed me over the edge.

Starting Monday I will slowly get back in the gym. I don't know how I will do this without becoming an obsessive freak, but it will happen. I'm just having to pick a "place" and start...making 10 pounds my goal. Then another 10..then another...then hopefully it will become a habit and I will be on my way to getting skinny;) haha.

Why am i blogging about this? well....because I figure, even though i only have 4 followers...that if i put this on the Internet, i cant back out! It'll be out there. So Monday begins my diet journey...it won't be easy...but by this time next year...i'll be looking back at this so happy that i took that first step! SOOOO, if you happen to read this...and you have ever been on a similar journey..or maybe you want to take this journey with me..then let's do it!

Pictures coming soon!